:3

I'm significantly happier than I was before, which was pretty happy. 

 First boyfriend stuff is more fun than I thought. I really feel better. I don't even care that I have a cold and that this girl in my AA gave it to me. I just feel better.   I don't hate school as much, and, in fact, I enjoy it. 

Tech club kind of sucks now, because we aren't really allowed to have as much fun any more. I mean, we're mostly done with our project. All we need are sprites, which I cannot draw without a mouse for my laptop.

Anyways, I have this dumb quiz I want to do (derp) so, eh.

this is how it goes: once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with twenty-five random things about you, whether they be your goals, your habits, all that jazz. when you're done, choose twenty-five lucky childrens to be tagged. you must tag the person who tagged you. if i tagged you, it means i want to know more about you.


1. I like someone.
 
2. I like a lot of actors (Patrick Swayze, Jack Nicholson, Tom Cruise, Ryan Reynolds, Chris Pine, Zachary Quinto, Sharlto Copley, and like a gazillion more).

3. I absolutely hate, hate, hate when people try to provoke me just because I hang out with someone or do something they aren't used to. I mean, I'd rather be friends with someone than have them not like me.

4. I honestly don't care about rumors.

5. I like to write  things, like poetry, stories, etc. But I don't like having set topics.

6. I love crime shows and mysteries.

7. I hate liars. They annoy me.

8. I like lots of different things, some things different that yours.

9. I like hugs.

10. I touch people's heads too much

11. I like learning about World War 2.

12. I'm a very happy person. :3

13. My favorite number is 3

14. I love horror movies.

15. I don't like doctors.

16. I've seen Mega Shark VS Giant Octopus.

17. I want some waffles.

18. I like chicken hotdogs.

19. I have  thing for soft hair.

20. I want to live in a big city, full of opportunities.

21. I've been chased by bees before. :C

22. I want snakebites in my lower lip, maybe studs in my top lip.

23. I love my phone like it's a baby.

24. Make up is hard to do.

25.I want crimson colored hair and some fringe ;;

[ ]you cry often
[] you have cut yourself
[x] you have taken a liking to the color black
[x] you think things you think nobody else would ever think
[x] you have thought about killing yourself (Everyone does. It's common.)
[] you punch, scratch yourself
[] your poor
[] you hide your face with your hair
[] you think nobody understands you
[] you feel alone
TOTAL: 3

[] taken a liking to other peoples pain
[ ] you enjoy pain
[] you have thought about cutting yourself
[x] you want something to die a lot (Twilight.)
[x] you have thought that you were bi polar
[ ] you have no friends
[] people have labeled you 'emo'
[ ] everybody hates you
[] you go to therapy
[] your quiet
TOTAL: 5

[ ] think nobody cares about you
[] you have been told "there's people that have it worse then you"
[] you don't leave the house (Im stuck on my ass all day)
[] you stopped eating for at least 2 days
[x] your worried about your future
[ ] your parents dont care
[ ] you dont like being around people
[] your friends left you because your depression
[] your lonely
[x] you spend a lot of your time on the computer ( )

TOTAL: 7

[ ] you feel like there is nothing good in life
[ ] your an atheist (Open minded.)
[] you only believe there is only bad in the world
[x] you feel more comfortable in black clothing (
[ ] you dont know what to do anymore
[] you have wanted to die for a stupid reason
[x] you have overreacted to something stupid
[ ] you could care less about school
[] the people that live with you make you feel worse
[ ] you hate your life
TOTAL: 9

TOTAL OUT OF ALL: 9

if you got 4 or under - your fine.
if you got 8-13 - you could be better
if you got 14-17 - see a doctor
if you got 18-22 - your depressed/suicidal
if you got 22-26 - you are very depressed and you had to have at least cut yourself once.
if you got 27-40 - you are one messed up person

//

 Jack Nicholson is the best actor ever egfegegegegegefefe.

That is all.

Wow.

  <rant> Ok, so, people still think it's funny to call me names?
  Like I don't know I'm wierd, or odd, or whatever you want to call it.
  But seriously, it's still funny?

  "HEY TELL YOUR FRIEND SKYLAR I SAID SHE'S UGLY. OH, AND ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS ARE NERDS. TELL THEM I SAID THAT."

   Just to sink that low, to actually HAVE to make fun of someone just because you're not like them, or maybe they have some sort of deficit that makes them different than you.

 Aww, boohoo, you can't hang out in our circle of friends. Who cares? Suck it up and make some new ones.  Plus, telling someone to tell another person something is cowardly. Actually be man enough to tell me to my face.

</rant>

Anyways, I still haven't worked up my courage enough to do certain things*, and it's making me mad.
 I mean, I could totally do it, but I choose not to. Everytime I look over there, I get butterflies, and I back off like, "Whoa, nevermind". Plus, it never interacts with me to the point I can ask, which makes me even more mad. It wants to interact with me, I know, but it just won't.







 *Ask via Facebook IM, or Facebook message, please.

Hurr

  Beans and Strings was kind of awkward.

  I mean, when I got there, I only knew like 2 people, then 2 more, then everyone was like shaking my hand.

  My awkwardness was mostly the cause of my getting the heck away from everyone and hiding in the corner.

  Everyone was great, though. Really friendly to me, and not really like everyone else who I usually bug the heck out of.

  So, my gratefulness goes to you guys, who didn't make me feel like a dinosaur in a pack of llamas.

  -B.H.

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